Plz advice me im v sad?

Hello,im sensitive,emotional,loving and caring girl who got married to a guy who s v ill mannered,heart has no feelings,hot tempered always,no caring,always ready to use abusive lang,hurt me and my feelings,moody,selfish,stingy,sometimes his mood is so good he says he love me and sometimes in worst,he makes me cry,sometimes in anger he even blames my parents for silly things,do u think i shld trust him and his love?im v confused by his good and bad behaviour,,my life has become like a roller coaster,i dont want to show my crying habit to him which is my weakness and he is making use of me,i knw crying is a good habit which removes stress frm heart and mind,i want to be emotionally strong in frnt of him,plz help me?