Ok this is kinda weird.?

I hate babies and I dislike kids. When the 'what if I got pregnant' question pops up I think of one thing, abortion. Okay this is the weird bit. I love Robert Downey Jr. and if I imagine if some weird mishap happens one day, and I got pregnant with his child, I wouldn't abort it ? I can actually imagine myself loving this child and stuff. But when I think about it later I get weirded out. But sometimes I actually like the thought of a child and looking after one all. Am I mad ?